Wednesday, May 7, 2008

Updates, changes and the cycle of life

Hi All, First the Tank update. Not a glowing report I am sad to say. His face has heat to it now despite my vigil of packing, spraying and shoving antibiotics down his throat daily. A call to the vet in the morning for sure. He now has developed a limp....Sigh..... I am pretty sure it is because he needs a trim and the ground is so dry and hard right now. None the less, called the farrier and he is coming to my rescue. Was trying to hold off til Harley came home next week but oh well.

As for me, the doctors appt was equally as frustrating. The test were inconclusive.... What the hey??? I have been refered to a specialist now. Probably a scope of the esophogus and stomach now. Yea. I did get the go ahead to function normally.. whatever that is!

I went down and visited Harley yesterday. Watched Brent ride him and he did great.
I got up on him and it was a whole different story....again.....
Corey sat down with me afterwards and we had the heart to heart that I feared was coming. It is of his opinion that Harley and I do not "Mesh". He was very serious about it and of course left all choices up to me but basically said Harley is broke very well and that he is basically not the horse for me. I had a good cry all the way home and did some soul searching all night and faced reality. I called Mike tonight and to my surprise he confirmed Corey's feelings. He thought that with my life and schedule that Harley was just to much horse for me. Sad, Sad, Sad......
I am mulling my decisions but unfortunately it is not the first time this thought has come up. I respect them for being honest with me and not just continuing to string me along each month Ah the cycle of life how ever changing it is.......

6 comments:

Mrs Mom said...

TRC, sometimes the hardest decisions are the best ones. Harley may be destined to go on to be a rgeat horse, and maybe that would not have happened if you had not been a stop for him along the way....

Hoping for the absolute best for you guys there...

Kisses to old TankMan too..... Both of you two need to get to feeling better already!!

Kathy C said...

Such sad news for you. Because horses have their own personalities, sadly sometimes the meshing just doesn't happen.

Best of luck with your next decision.

Poor Tank. I hope both of you are feeling better soon.

Pony Girl said...

I hope you and Tank are on the mend soon! It is frustrating when tests are inconclusive! When you know something is not right but nobody can tell you what it is. I've been there.
Regarding Harley, I think it would be a tough decision to make. But if you have a particular goal in mind and the horse you have isn't a good fit for what you want, then maybe it's best for you both to find new partners. We don't date or marry everyone, either. Horse and people partnerships have to be "right", too. Good luck and hang in there. This too, shall pass!

Victoria Cummings said...

TRC - I'm so sorry. It must feel like too much to deal with all at once. I only want to remind you that as far as Harley goes, there are no deadlines. You can take some time to decide what to do. With so many other big problems going on in your life, it might be good to just wait a bit. I'm sure Harley will love to be back at your place. Tank might get better faster if he has his buddy. Mike and Corey sound like good men, and they will help you whenever you decide what you want to do. It doesn't sound like you need to rush into anything.

Simply Marvelous said...

Oh, how sad. You really have lots to deal with right now.

Perhaps thinking things through slowly will help you to reach the best decision. Time is a wonderful companion at times like this.

All the best ...

Rising Rainbow said...

It sounds like they have the best interest of the horse and the owner at heart. That in itself is refreshing.

I can understand some horses and riders not being a good fit. If that is the case, you'll both make each other miserable. Figuring out if that is your relationship or not will be hard. I don't envy you.